So I'm watching this new show (yes, I'm bored) and it's about surprise marriage in days time (yes, I'm girly). How do these people do this!?!

I mean, yes, after being with someone for so long you obviously know that you're in it for the long run and you have gone over the thoughts a million and one times about whether they are the one. But suddenly to have this thrown onto you... I can understand how the doubts come about. Of course, the result will be what you make of it. Should you continue your relationship, it will still be the same relationship but if you go in thinking a hint of doubt days prior to a wedding, can that small little doubt have such a huge impact that it affects your feelings on the relationship??? Hmmmm, too much time on my hands.

So how do you know that person is the one? Id there a special one and only? Out of billions of other people how can there possibly only be one suitable person? Did you ever think that maybe just a few moments later, or paying closer attention would've ended you up with another person you feel to be "the one" instead of the guy sitting beside you for the past 5 years?

Too many thoughts

BUT

I have two certains, I love my two boys with more than a word could ever describe, and I am inseperable from what I consider to be "the love of my life". Is that when you know it's right? When you just cannot picture the future without him, as hard as you try? When every little dumb factoid from who will care for me when I puke in the car, to who can I attempt my half assed cooking on, all leads to that one simple (and seemingly very common) name comes to mind. Argh, can you even call that love? It's more like a zen. Again, more than a word can describe.

So that being said, seems "someone" has set the wedding date. I consider it a goal, he considers it a fact. August 5th, 2010 here we go.

Now onto choosing my maid of honor, and flowers, and location etc etc.. I've got $50 saying he wont have any opinion on the planning HA!